I have been writing in my journal for about two weeks now, trying to get the creative juices flowing.
I want to take the National Novel Writing Month challenge in November. You write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days. I don’t know what I want to write about, but I love the idea. http://nanowrimo.org/
I don’t know what I want the focus of this blog to be. I want to write whatever comes to my head. I know I have said that before here and then backed off, but it seems like the best thing to do. I feel hemmed in when I try to write to a specific audience.
For Example someone visited here today, referred by a private forum I’m on where they visited my bio, my world famous article on Payos and the most recent article…then they went on their way, didn’t “follow” my blog or leave on comment. Should I care? I’m thinking no.
Today has been off.
The sun didn’t shine – no laundry.
The internet went down – no research papers.
The husband has a weird day off – schedule blown.
The kids are tired from a full weekend…well they are quiet so that’s a bonus.
My children on the Spectrum are trying to adjust to the new season. They don’t do well with the temp change, the allergies or the back to back birthdays that aren’t theirs. We have had a bit of regression but with the help of benadryll and a good routine we are making it through.
We are having a random bumper crop of peppers. They were a medley seed packet. In the Spring only the “red peppers” gave fruit, now I have about 4 different varieties just going crazy. I figure they will continue to fruit till we get some really cold weather. My husband is thrilled he loves making this crazy hot sauce that we all have to seek shelter outside when he makes it. We may have to purchase respirators just to be around the stuff…smh.
I’m stealing a few moments of peace and quiet over at Mom’s house. It’s crazy quiet here, so I thought I would blog a bit about the last few weeks.
Back in 2007 I have what is antiquatedly referred to as a nervous breakdown. Since then I have beaten back most of the left over consequences to that but occasionally, when I am tired, hormonal or just plain stressed the anxiety will raise it horrible head. Unfortunately it affects my sleeping and eating habits not to mention I’m no fun to be around. Enter an 8 day long migraine just a week before our vacation…can you say really terrible horrible no good day? eight times? Well the final straw which drove me to the hospital was the panic attack, remember stress, tired and hormonal? Ah yes, and I’m in the ER for a day to get some IV Meds to kick the migraine which will allow me to start coping skills for the anxiety.
So a few days later we are off to the land of no oxygen or Colorado Springs for those of you not in the know. Apparently lack of oxygen and the overall newness of surroundings are also a trigger for anxiety, YEAH me! Now what you may not know is that I’m out of my anxiety meds, have been for almost a month…can’t get in to see my PCM, gotta love Obamacare…I mean Tricare(obamacare-lite) No one would listen to us pampered, overly indulged military families when we SCREAMED Vote No on Obamacare…you don’t want what we got! I digress. So I’m using benadryll to keep the anxiety at bay and it’s working but it is also making me sleep….a lot, sorry for that Jenn. Believe it or not, we had a great trip anxiety and all, Jenn’s family knows how to roll with the punches and an anxious Army spouse asleep on their couch ain’t nothin’ compared to what they have gone through this last year!
So I get home, and I start blowing up the appointment line, I call everyone with a phone number and a voice mail and lo and behold I got an appointment! For the NEXT DAY!! What?! Alright so I’m properly medicated and feeling great, about to head out and get some doughnuts. It’s talk like a Pirate day, me mateys!
We went up to a friend’s place for almost three weeks. We grew their household number from 5 to 12. We ate, cleaned, slept and lived in a 4 bedroom, 2 bathroom home…and we still love each other!
Headed off to Colorado with lots of pillows and a touch of humor.
We visited Focus on the Family’s Visitor’s Center, The kids had a blast!
We also visited their Congregation during a free outreach to the Community.
We also just hung out Oh we took Sandy too!
Yesterday around 2pm I came down with a major migraine, knocked me out! Thank God for respite care. Our worker was here at the house at the time so I was afforded an uninterrupted nap in the middle of day. This headache hung around through my evening workout and into the next day. I woke up with a long list of things to do, and not quite enough time to do it in.
Baruch Hashem for my children! They pitched in over and over again and they did this with great attitudes as well. I was blessed to find that I had no headache by the middle of the afternoon and a clean house!
This evening we hosted Bible Study, what another Blessing to have a bunch of great people in your house talking about Torah about Messiah about Hashem….awesome!